- 01:tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? Her personality, her looks, her charm, and everything about her. She just doesn't love me back. At least I think so. I'm afraid to tell her...
- 02:what on your body is hurting or bothering you? My stomach
- 03:what was your last thought before going to bed last night? "I'm bored as shit"
- 04:what are you listening to? My lonliness
- 05:what’s something you’re not looking forward to? School
- 06:where do you think your best friend is right now? Sleeping?
- 07:have you kissed anybody in the last five days? No ;-;
- 08:favorite song ? Primadonna~Marina And The Diamonds
- 09:kiss on the first date? Depends how it went
- 10:is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes
- 11:are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Generally speaking? Yes
- 12:is there something you would like to say to someone? I love you
- 13:what are three things you did today? 1) Absolutely 2) Nothing 3) Productive
- 14:would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? Over at their house
- 15:what is your favorite kind of gum? Mint =u=
- 16:are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? 3 out of 4 Not bad.
- 17:what is on your wrists right now? Her name
- 18:ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? Yes
- 19:does anyone have strong feelings for you? I dont know but if they do they should say something
- 20:are you slowly drifting away from someone? Kind of
- 21:have you ever wasted your time on someone? You cant be human if you say you haven't done that
- 22:can you do the alphabet in sign language? Ye
- 23:how have you felt today? What haven't I felt today
- 24:you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Anime merch
- 25:what is wrong with you right now? Depressed and in love
- 26:is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? Myself
- 27:would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? Well I have never had Jamba Juice so I will have to go with Starbucks
- 28:why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? I kinda still am?
- 29:how late did you stay up last night and why? Midnight
- 30:when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? At her grandmother's funeral
- 31:what were you doing an hour ago? Wanting ice cream
- 32:what are you looking forward to in the next month? Going to Orlando :3
- 33:are you wearing jeans right now? No
- 34:are you a patient person? No
- 35:do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? Certainly
- 36:favorite color? Black
- 37:did you have a dream last night? Yes, my worst nightmare!!
- 38:are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? I'll give you a hint neither (But I am wearing something)
- 39:if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? I got like at least 3 people in mind
- 40:do you love anyone who is not related to you? Yes
- 41:if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? OF COURSE
- 42:do you like meeting new people? No
- 43:are you afraid of falling in love? Sometimes
- 44:ever self-harmed or starved yourself? yes
- 45:has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Yes
- 46:have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? Yes
Although it seemed like nothing the gut feeling hurt like a stomach ache, and felt empty like as if I was hungry it was strange.
I was walking home from my bus stop with my hood up,hands in my pockets, while listening to music on my phone, before I walked through the door. I kicked off my lucky Converse my best friend Amanda got me for my birthday, I haven't talked to Amanda in a while. I figured she was wrapped up with homework or studying for a test.
Later that night I saw her on MSN; I never knew that would be the last time I ever spoke to her ever.
BellaB00p: Hey Amanda
XxForgottenSecretsxX: Hey Bella, what's up?
BellaB00p: Nothing much, what about you
XxForgottenSecretsxX: Not much,sorry we haven't talked in a while I've been busy with school and family
BellaB00p: Oh it's cool I understand
XxForgottenSecretsxX: Sorry I got to go bye
[XxForgottenSecretsxX is now offline]
[BellaB00p is now away]
I had nothing left to do, so I decided to go to bed. That gut feeling I had earlier was still there, I had no idea. I figured it was just a stomach ache.
When I woke up the next morning it was still there, except now it hurt worse. I woke up to see my mom on the phone and her and my dad looked so sad "I'm sorry for your loss...I'll tell her, bye" she said into the phone sadly before hanging up, no one said a word but in my mind was so noisy with questions like:
- Who was that on the phone?
- Why do my parents look so sad?
- Could the phone call have something to do with my stomach hurting?
Well whatever it was, I guess I will find out soon enough...